So Tired Of Crying
My life is so full of super exciting happy things going on right now! I mean I am finally living in my purpose! I have left fear doubt and unbelief in my past and I am pressing daily to accomplish my goals and dreams. Yet when I look into your eyes I find this blank lifeless stare. Where are you Mommy? What can I do to make you come back? The holiday season has caught up with us yet again and I would love to hear you sing Christmas songs again. Or tell me the reason you don't like eggnog. Cookies, the smell of fresh baked cookies coming out of the oven, reminds me of you. Do you remember you baked something for us almost everyday? Your hands used to intrigue me because they were always so diligent no matter what kind of mood you were in. Do you remember you taught me to wrap presents? Do you remember you taught me that intelligence and kindness are more beautiful than a pretty face and a nasty attitude? I cry often during most days but lately I seem to be extremely sentimental I guess it's because you not only seem so far away but you look so frail. You have no idea how much I long to hear you tell me what's really on your mind. You my love were once the most intelligent woman I knew. That level of intellect is still there right? Right? Right Mommy? Mommy! Mommy! Oh please Mommy please talk to me! I'm just so tired of crying! I have so many exciting things to share with you. I'm dedicating a whole new business venture to people like myself who take care of their loved ones and oftentimes just have to cry.......Mommy, Mommy,......Mommy! Are you in there? Oh please Mommy just talk to me! Oh wow not again please Mommy look me in my eyes I need to tell you something. Look at me please Mommy I need to know you understand what I am saying. There are 1000's (heck I'm sure that's an underestimate) of people out there just like us! One trapped inside their own head the other feeling trapped being the caregiver who so desperately needs to here the next set of plans come from the mouth of the person they are caring for. Oh Mommy I'm just so tired of crying
