20 Minutes Of Chaos

I want to walk through the door cause I'm tired and just ready to get to a place of peace and rest. Instead, I pull into the driveway and it's pitch dark, no porch light on, and earlier my husband killed a snake in the front yard near the door. did I mention I'm terrified of snakes? yeah, well then to top it all off I call and get someone to turn the light on and now I come in and now what do I see Mom sitting in the same spot she was in when I left why because I chose to tell my caregiver she could have the day off I didn't work until this evening so I should be able to handle this right? naaaahhhh I ain't got one more ounce of fortitude to endure anything extra and I mean that with every fiber of my being! I will pay her a million dollars if I have to. I can't do this thing anymore I have sacrificed and given up way too many moments of my time, my me time in the past 10 years wait a minute it's only been 8 years! see what I mean! DONE I AM DONE! But first, let me take Mom to the bathroom and then get her some dinner and get her dressed for bed and then I will get back to that place of peace and rest I was searching for so desperately needing to walk into when I got home from giving other people their much needed moments of me-time. Yea Ironically I am a massage therapist and I create daily for others what I so desperately need for myself just once.